I want some new icons D8

I've found a lot of awesome Avatar icons through dieticons, but do you guys know where I could find some more? I like variety x3 I make a couple on my own, but icon making isn't one of my strong points...so I leave that up to the pros 8|

I wish I knew more about LJ layouts, cause I'd totally customize it with Kahlea 8D

WHERE MY AIR BENDERS AT?? hooooooooo!

...and when you can't do that, you find someone to carry you.

Superchick- Hold

Tell me that it's gonna be okay
Tell me that you'll help me find my way
Tell me you can see the light of dawn is breaking
Tell me that it's gonna be all right
Tell me that you'll help me fight this fight
Tell me that you won't leave me alone in this

[chorus]
'Cause I need
I need a hand to hold
To hold me from the edge
The edge I'm sliding over slow
'Cause I need
I need your hand to hold
To hold me from the edge
The edge I'm sliding past
Hold on to me

Tell me I can make it through this day
I don't even have the words to pray
You have been the only one who never left me
Help me find the way through all my fears
Help me see the light through all my tears
Help me see that I am not alone in this

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Superchick- Crawl (carry me through)

How long will this take?
How much can I go through?
My heart, my soul aches
I don't know what to do
I bend, but don't break
Somehow I'll get through
Cause I have You

And if I had to crawl
Well You'd crawl too
I stumble and I fall
Carry me through
The wonder of it all
Is You see me through

O Lord, where are you?
Do not forget me here
I cry in silence
Can you not see my tears

When all have left me
And hope has disappeared
You'll find me here

I can't even describe how happy I am that I was able to follow such an amazing series all the way through and to watch it go out with a BANG! Avatar was such a huge inspiration to me on so many different levels. It caught my attention during the first episode and left me hooked all the way to the very end. It inspired me to create new characters and to explore a fun, new world for the imagination that I could share with other Avatards. It challenged me to take my creativity to another level...to not just settle with fanart, but to work toward something even greater.

During the commercial breaks of the Season Finale, I took some time to write. I've been inspired by several artists and a couple of comics and have decided to run with my own idea of an Avatar Alternate Universe. Two of my greatest inspirations have been rufftoon and alexds3, who have shared so many awesome and inspiring comics/images with us! I hope to achieve a similar level of professionalism in my own artwork someday :3 Until then, I guess what I've got now will have to do xD

Anyway! On to the geeking out!!!

( Ember Island Players )

( Season Finale )

I gave a very satisfied sigh at the end of the show ;3; My only regret is not being able to cosplay as Toph at Comic Con this year T___T Maybe...some other time, lol. Then I can make sure I fit the part better and have an awesome costume. I wish I were taller, so I could cosplay Kahlea D8

So...yeah. I'm on like...an Avatar high right now. You have no idea. I've been writing and drawing on my breaks and just like...feeling so inspired ;3;

I totally want animated Rocket Azula/Ozai icons now 8(

SA;LFJKGH;SLAIRV;LAWELFJKGH;SALIRUGN;VWS;LI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD BE THIS OVERWHELMED BY A SERIES.

I CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED CAUSE IT WAS JUST TOO MUCH AWESOME.

I'm...going to rewatch both "Ember Island Players" and the finale, then give a proper rundown on what all I loved about both episodes 8|

OMG. I'VE BEEN FILLED WITH SO MUCH INSPIRATION, YOU GUYS JUST DON'T EVEN KNOW. SO MUCH AVATAR GOODNESS COMING SOON FROM ME.

<33333

I'm really bad at movie reviews, especially for non-animated films xD

But guys...seriously?

The Dark Knight was INTENSE.

SO MUCH ROCKING ACTION.

SUSPENSE'D.

SO MUCH CHEERING AND RETARDATION IN THE THEATER.

SO MANY TWISTS IN THE FILM.

HARVEY DENT SCARED ME SH*TLESS.

I swear...Heath Ledger...he owned that roll. OWNED IT. It made me really sad to remember that he wouldn't be able to continue such a fantastic and horrifying roll. It was pure brilliance. I agree...his best performance ever ;n;

I swear I am STILL on the edge of my seat over everything that happened in the movie AND IT WAS OVER AN HOUR AGO. I agree with ailurophile:

"This film obliterates the memory of the Burton series of Batman films. It even makes 'Batman Begins', the director's previous film, look like a lighthearted frolic in the park. Relentlessly paced and utterly dark from beginning to end, THIS is what Batman should be. And it's the most successful comic book adaption I've ever seen. Spider-Man, X-Men, Iron Man, they're all great superhero films. The Dark Knight is more than that: it's a great film, period. The fact that it originated from a comic book is incidental."

My favorite part was when Rachel and Bruce were talking and they kissed...then someone in the audience called out in a really funny voice "SLUT" xDDD Classic. This is why the midnight showings are usually the best C8

THE SOUTHERN RAIDERS...THE ENTIRE EPISODE WAS INTENSE save for all of Aang's pansy lectures STARTING AT THE BEGINNING WITH ALMOST PSYCHO AZULA!!!

IN THE WORDS OF lizbeast: "No speech, no taunting. Just BAM SHUT UP I AM THROWING FIREBALLS AT YOUR FACE NOW."

ROCKET AZULA <3 I WAS SO HAPPY! I THOUGHT THEY WOULDN'T DO IT ANYMORE xDDDD I LOVE YOU MIKE AND BRYAN!

AZULA WITH HER HAIR DOWN <33333

HARU ACTUALLY DID SOMETHING, WHAT? ONE THING, BUT STILL xD Not that Toph really needed his help, but shhhh

SOKKA AND SUKI TRYING TO BE ALL MISCHIEVOUS LOLOLOL!!!

RAMPAGING KATARA LAYING THE SMACK DOWN WITH HER CRAZY/INTENSE BENDING!!!

BLOOD BENDING!!!!

SUSPENDED ICE KNIVES/SHARDS/WHATEVER!!!!

-BREATHES-

Omg you guys 8| I think my inner Avatard just EXPLODED. I am so stoked for the remaining episodes, you have no idea! I am SO glad they are upping the action!!! That's one of the main things I love about Avatar and I was sad that there was a lot of down time in that area. But whoa...so far I am satisfied 8|

I have to go draw retarded fanarts now 8D

Taking a break for a bit, cause buttfacemakani and rotae are coming to hang out 8D!!! We're gonna hit up CHIPOTLE <3 And then be super Avatards together 8D And then! And then! I...have no idea x3 But I'm excited. I love when people come visit me ;3;

Avatar Finale...WHO ELSE IS EXCITED?! I totally am! I just wish my TV weren't being stupid, so I could watch it when it airs. Ah well, there is always my friend the internet...so hopefully I won't be too far behind everyone D:

Working on left over badges from AC. Have just about all of them inked. Tomorrow I'll color them, then I can get back to regular commissions. At some point I have to write out my to-do list, so I make sure to stay organized 8|

WARNING: This entry is ridiculously ginormous due to my lack of updating. Read at your own risk!
( Anthrocon )

( Koalacon )

( Traveling )

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Well now I'm home and am taking a few days to just...relax and recover from all of this traveling and excitement xD I'll be hopping back on commissions and things come Sunday/Monday. I may not be around on messengers much, as I'll be busy catching up on things. If anyone needs me/has any questions/etc, feel free to email me or text me! I'll get myself organized again at some point, lol.

P.S. I miss everyone 8(

It feels like ever since I got back from AC, my computer has been acting up more than usual c.c I don't know if it's actually my computer dying or like...my mom's roommate 8| She was using my computer while I was gone and I have no idea what she was doing on here.

Everything's been running slow. My messengers completely stopped working. Every time I try to bring them up, the computer freezes. I uninstalled everything and tried to reinstall them, but they won't finish loading. My computer has been struggling to turn off and just...augh 8( There are all these other issues.

My bro has been working to have my new computer ready, but apparently some of the parts being sent to him are delayed. So I may not have that when I go visit on the 9th. So...now I'm kind of feeling a little worried. I need my computer to function so I can finish commissions and stuff :C

Things are going to get better! The good times ahead start with dinner with Shaylee <3

A'right kids!

I'm spending the rest of my time cracking down on art I need to catch up on for AC! So I won't be posting or anything until I get back from the convention C:

So...for all of you going, hit me up in Artist Alley! And be sure to check out the Art Show and bid on my shnozz! I will be most thankful :3

Can't wait to see everyone! Eeeeeee 8D If you don't know how to find me, look for the super short chubby girl with glasses wearing THIS AWESOME HAT:

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v254/kkitty23/Misc/HIGEHAT_Color.jpg

I'm...super nervous about AC c.c

I finished up 2 of my art show pieces and am fairly pleased with them. The collab Ivy Beth and I did is finished. I just have one more digital piece to do and then two traditional images...

-sigh-

I think I'm just super scared that no one will bid on anything xD I've never done this before and I think I'm having those 'What if I'm not good enough?' feelings c.c I know that people like my work, but...augh xD I don't know! I wish I had more this year.

I have 2 prints so far. I'm hoping to get one or two more finished in time for AC. I still have about 4 badges to finish. I think everything else is just going to be put on hold, cause I'm starting to get all...blegh 8|

Oh God, I hope I can make enough to cover rent ;n; That's like...all I can think about. I hope I can relax enough to enjoy myself @__@

So I'm offering traditional badges one last time before AC! So check it out, there's only one slot left! Hit me up if you're interested C: If more people would like one, I may take on some more, since they don't take me long at all.

Go here for info: http://koalakitty23.deviantart.com/journal/18904121/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY buttfacemakani!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IF YOU'RE NOT BUSY...I WILL TREAT YOU TO...SOMETHING? Otherwise hope you have an awesome Bday!

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Ok, so thanks guys for being all concerned and LAUGHING AT MY PAIN, concerning my stupid accident xD Haha. It's ok, I know I'm an idiot. I'm fine now after getting some rest...which was hard. There was some more excitement after all that happened 8|

So it was around 6am when I finally went to bed. I was feeling all awesome cause I totally accomplished my goal and everything. So I lay down and am drifting off to sleep...almost ready to dream, when...

BOOM!!!!!

My entire apartment shakes and I kid you not...I jumped so high in the air D8 I thought one of my neighbors apartments exploded or something and I freaked, cause I heard a dog yelp? And I was like OH SHI-

So I throw my glasses on and...I guess it was cause I was all sleepy, but I thought I saw smoke. So I panicked and ran outside with my phone. My mind was racing and so many scenarios were going through my head. Was it my neighbor? Was it my mom's apartment? Was everything ok? What do I do if everything's on fire?!

I hop outside...everything looks calm. I turn my head and see my mom's roommate talking to a security guard. She spots me and waves all cheerily and I was like, "WHAT THE CRAP WAS THAT?!"

Apparently...a transformer blew out...blew up? Hell if I know. But it was LOUD. And scared the shit out of everyone xD Electricity was out for a few hours, but I guess they hopped right on it. Oh man...

So I'm all WIDE AWAKE now and hopping back on commissions 8| First a head injury and then an almost heart attack. What the hell, man xD I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A FREAKIN' ACTION FILM, WTF.

So I'm all up at ungodly hours of the morning actually being productive and awesome.

I go to the bathroom, kind of staggering from my lack of sleep.

I come out and head back for the living room when...

BAM!

Being the genius that I am, I lose my balance and end up bashing my head on the side of the towel rack. Ow...it hurts. Take a breath, then go sit down to finish working on my quota for the night.

I feel slightly dizzy/light-headed. Something feels cool, running down the side of my head. Am I sweating? It is kind of hot in the apartment. I turn on the AC, then go to the bathroom area again to take down my hair (it was in a pony tail). Look in the mirror and...

...

....

O...MG.

Bleeding a LOT from the side of my head 8|

I swear to God...my biggest fear is that I'll end up killing myself by accident and no one will actually be concerned until a week later or when my body starts to funk up the apartment c.c

YOU FUCKING RETARD.

So I kind of feel like the world's biggest jerk right now.

I wish I had tons of money so I could just help all of the people I know with needs. I hate that I can't just give to everyone freely. I want to be able to see people and to make them smile. It just kills me that I'm in such a financial rut right now.

I gotta get another job. I don't care if I end up flipping effin' burgers for a while...I want to be able to help my friends and the people I care about 8(

You know what kills me?

When you finally come to that point in your life when you're so effin' determined to be independent and AWESOME...and then suddenly out of nowhere the most random people jump out of the shadows like ninjas and confess their undying love for you or tell you that they've had a crush on you since forever...or just tell you that they totally dig you xD

COME ON!

I've decided that I don't want a relationship. There's just too much going on in my life right now. I still have a lot of maturing to do and...my art is my life. I put art above just about everything. It's my passion and right now it's currently my full time job. I don't have much free time to offer people and frankly...I just don't make a great girlfriend xD I'm too set on my independence, I really just come off as a huge bitch, lol. I've been screwed over enough times it's left me bitter and...I haven't completely dealt with all of those feelings. So I think if anything, a relationship is dangerous.

But you know what I'm totally for?

Being a pimp and building on my harem. It seems to be the one thing I'm good at 8|

Ok, I'm also super excited to just...get away. I think I really need a vacation. I'm under a lot of stress right now and I think I'm ready to just be chill, flirt, laugh, make an idiot of myself, meet tons of new people, etc! This AC is going to be awesome! And then I get to come home and meet up with my girl asimplesong, which is going to be AWESOME. And then I get to road trip with my mom again to visit my brothers and some old friends of the family. And the best part? I WILL GET MY NEW COMPUTER 8D!!! At least I'm totally hoping that my brother has it ready in time, otherwise...I will be very sad :C

I guess I should try and get some sleep. I probably won't even remember typing any of this c.c

Wait...is it seriously 4am? Ah geez 8|

Ok y'all...

Out of the people going to Anthrocon, which of you are bringing fursuits? And 'who' are you wearing? Are they full suits or half suits?

I have this plan...to try and snag as many suits as possible so I can like...chibify everyone's character xD (I'm 4'11", super short!) If you wouldn't mind letting me borrow your suit for like 30 minutes to an hour? I will draw you stuff for trade C:

It would be ideal if they were male characters, because it'd be funny xD And even more ideal if they're super badass characters, LOL. I promise to keep everyone's characters looking cool C: You don't have to worry about me doing anything too ridiculous! And, of course, I'll chill with you while in suit...unless you're ok with me scampering off, haha.

I really want a fursuit, but I can't afford one right now :C So...I'm just looking to have some fun and test it out! Let me know if you'd be interested :D

Ok, so commissions are on a temp close, until I can catch up! I've been working on replying to everyone who's commented on their interest in commissioning me. So if you got a note/email/comment from me then you're good. Anyone just jumping in will have to wait, sorry D:

Btw, this shake diet thing I'm on is AWESOME. I've never felt so energized like...in a healthy way xD And all the swimming I've been doing has made me feel super healthy. Monday is when I weigh myself again to see if I've made any progress 8| I wish I'd known about this waaaaaay back when I was first all pumped about getting in shape. Blah. Maybe if I pick up DDR and walking again I can...make more progress? I dunno. I think I've kind of been obsessing due to the Novum rejection :C I need to not let that get to me though, cause I don't want to end up turning into one of those scary desperate girls who gets hooked on crack/speed or something c.c LOL

I've been listening to CaramellDansen for the last...5 hours 8|

So I've been doing traditional badges on the side for a couple of random people, to try and brush up my skills before AC...I hope people like them enough to commission me :C I feel so stupid with traditional media xD Like I'll be super proud of something I did, then I hop on DA or FA and see other people's traditional crap and I'm just like AUGH I AM EPIC FAILURE T___T I think it would help if I had more markers/colored pencils. I'm on a limited supply, so...that might be a problem :/

Is anyone bringing a paper cutter to AC, by chance? Like a portable one or...a big one even? Haha.

OH UH...I have a question. If I bring scissors and like...an X-acto knife and toss it in my check in bag when I fly...that shouldn't be a problem or anything, should it? I know I can't take it as a carry on, but I wasn't sure if the same rules apply for check ins. Cause...I need to bring supplies c.c

So I'm trying not to freak out about things. I ended up drinking...a lot the past couple of days D: Which is bad. It's hard to focus on commissions when you are drunk xD But yeah. I WILL NOT FREAK OUT/BE DEPRESSED. I'm gonna have a freakin' AWESOME time at AC and I'm going to make enough to cover rent and whatever else I need to cover *DETERMINED*

P.S. I totally love all of the crazy sounds anime voice actors come up with! I WANT TO BE COOL LIKE THAT TOO. If I ever become a voice actress...I will be hella awesome and use awesome sounds for cartoons. I WILL BE FAMOUS.

What is your name?

I go by a few xD Including, but not limited to: Candace, CANNON, Candance, Kkitty and JERK xD

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?

You'll probably find me in Artist Alley every day, as long as I'm chosen. Otherwise...I dunno xD Wandering around like an idiot? Most likely being loud and obnoxious, haha.

Where are you staying?

The Westin Hotel C:

Who will you be with?

For now, the 'absolutes' are Val (Yunicoon), Val's fiance Scott (Blaits) and Val's sister (Kitty). I'm trying to get the Wifey there too 8( And then there might be one or two extras. It'll be packed kinda tight xD

Do you do free art?

Yup! When I'm not in Artist Alley...everything is free 8D Well, if I feel like drawing, lol.

Do you do commissions?

Yup! You can commission me in Artist Alley or like...I dunno *coughontheDLcough*

Do you do badges?

I'll actually be offering badges this year *GASP* They'll be traditional though...I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not xD I guess we'll see how it goes, lol.

Do you have any prints/CDs?

I should have a couple of prints this year, but no CDs. Maybe next year!

What is your gender?

A very, very, very tomboyish girl x3

How old are you?

24...though everyone says I look 12 D:

Are you taken? Are you looking for a 'mate'?

Not taken. And nah, I have commitment issues? But there's enough of me to go around ;P

Can I touch you?

I'm all for hugs and handshakes...but no groping, unless you are a really hot guy/girl :C LOL xD

Can I talk to you?

Of course! I love talking to and meeting new people! As long as you aren't being rude or interrupting me, then it's all good x3 I'm a very laid back person.

What do you look like?

Short, white girl who dresses like a boy xD That's me! I'll be wearing my Hige hat for the most part...so you should recognize me if you've seen it before. Otherwise...look for the short girl wearing a yellow/orangish and brown wolf hat 8D

Like so:

Do you see me
Do you feel me like I feel you
Call your number
I cannot get through
You don't hear me
And I don't understand
When I reach out
I don't find your hand

Were they wasted words
And did they mean a thing
And all that precious time
But I still feel so in between

CHORUS:
Someday, I just keep pretending
That you'll stay
Dreamin' of a different ending
I wanna hold on
But it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had

I keep tellin' myself
Things can turn around with time
And if I wait it out
You could always change your mind
Like a fairy tale
Where it works out in the end
Can I close my eyes
Have you lyin' here again
Then I come back down
Then I fade back in
Then I realize
It's just what might have been

(chorus)

Am I a shadow on your wall
Am I anything at all
Anything to you
Am I a secret that you keep
Do you dream me while you're sleeping
After all
Someday, I just keep pretending
That you'll stay
Dreamin' of a different ending
I wanna hold on
But it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had
That I never had
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had

You don't see me...
you don't feel me like I feel you